Imperfect Me

I LOVE THEM. Very very love. Cannot been describe. May Allah bless my parents, your parents and other parents in the world. Our parents are the best. :'(

The story of my life.
Actually, my father really want me to be Ustazah in the future because i take Arab, Syariah Islamiah and Al-Quran Sunnah in my previous school. But, i keep on thinking that, be Ustazah must be perfect. This is what we call mentality. People keep on searching for this 'Ulama' bad side and when someday it appears, they will judge the person like they are a god. They didn't know that the Ustazah and Ustaz are still a human that will make a mistake in the future. Not an angel.

From what i see, be the type of religious people, they must be perfect 100%. Yeah, i'm so afraid to carry out the tittle of 'Ustazah' by wearing a long wide shawl hijab and so on. Because im so sure my attitude totally opposite with the tittle. Many of muslimah are afraid of being judje by other person. Because they are no support and motivation from other, they will keep make mistake and afraid to make changes because of mentality among us nowadays.

So yeah. This is me. Who is still in still cannot move on. Who keep on staying at the same place. Who is still afraid of making changes in my life. So yeah. this is imperfect side of me that so afraid of being judge by other. Al-Fatihah Syuhaidah.:'(

*comelnya aku waktu kecik sampai ke besar badi dia. Kah. XD*